Outstanding and concise!
Trans-Woman (if there must be a label) My story is like so many others. At an early age I felt as though my body didn't match who I really was on the inside. There was no way to know what the incongruence might be. During adolescence the super macho phase appeared. The odd feelings remained, but I had learned to overcompensate or cover them by out-maninng other young men. The penchant for female clothing had been there since about age 3 or so I am told. I hid that part way down deep, but still amassed large wardrobes onlypurge them and then begin the binge all over again. Marriage seemed like the "silver-bullet" cure for what seemed to constantly haunt and taunt me. I married the most beautiful woman. She was an amazing partner. Well, she really still is my "rock". If it were not for her unconditional love I would not be alive today. Clothes befitting a woman would always find their way back into my life. Many times she would participate, and at least act like she was alright. Then at age 48 the truth could not be contained any longer. For 28 years of marriage I had been there for her and our children, but more like a spectator than a participant. Oh, I was involved, but somehow also felt as though I was watching a movie. Anger, depression, roller coaster weight gain and loss, and a generalized feeling of never being satisfied with anything in life. We had "the talk" and my wife became more amazing than I could imagine. She saw it all along, and told me she was okay and would help me become me. Next came counseling with an amazing counselor with an in-dept knowledge and compassion for people walking through the gender maze. Then I was lucky enough to find an outstanding doctor who had the knowledge and compassion as well. I began HRT on December 9, 2016, and the last twelve months have been the best months of my life. I live in "red-neck-county". I play guitar for a touring country artist. I have also co-written a few songs many people would know. I have a BA and MA in Psychology (and half of my psychology doctorate on a shelf in my office at home). I own a successful company in a totally unrelated field. For the last 20 years I have been a licesensed and ordained Southern Baptist pastor (Insert your jokes here, but don't throw anything at me. Get to know me). I have also been the CEO for a small market television station, and produced television programs for 12 years. I would love to write for this blog. As for now I am continuing a slow transition, not too slow, but people in my neck of the woods are slow to warm up to folk like me. So I continue to proceed with caution. I am referred to as mam, miss, young lady nearly exclusively, and that is when I am wearing a t-shirt, jeans, Addidas, and no makeup too. I guess the changes are happening faster. That is cool with me. My story continues...