2019: The Year I Transition

Photo: Victoria Elizabeth

Victoria Elizabeth makes the decision to take the next step in her journey.to being her authentic self.

Here we are, 2019. I don’t know about you, but 2018 was a roller coaster ride for me personally. I made new friends and lost some old ones, but I also learned more about myself and accepted the person who I am. I don’t want to say that I finally discovered who I am because I did that over 10+ years ago, but 2018 goes down as the year I stopped being afraid of who I am.

So now I move on to 2019. I began 2019 in the same place I began 2018, in Times Square New York City. No, I didn’t I have the pleasure of being there for the ball drop and all the craziness of New Year’s Eve. That is because I work the overnight shift shooting the news and I am just getting to work at 12:30 AM. I made it to Times Square at 1:30 AM. The amazing thing is that I was standing in the exact same spot I was standing in 365 days ago. It couldn’t have been more fitting as a point of tradition in my life. My goal for 2018 had been to reach out to the community more, and I did do that over last year, but as I stood there this time around I was wondering what will be the next step in my journey,

2019, the year I transition. Yes, you read that right. That is if all goes to plan. Keep in mind a plan that I have not fully made yet, but that is how I roll. I decide to do something and then the little things called “details” usually come later. I am not the most organized person in the world, but I play one on TV.

"NO, I HAVEN’T YET FIGURED OUT WHAT MY TRANSITION LOOKS LIKE, AND AS I SIT HERE THINGS I HAD NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT ARE COMING TO MY MIND."

So there I was in Times Square wondering how different things are going to be and how different I may look 365 days from now. It is the thought that has been the most overwhelming in my mind since. No, I haven’t yet figured out what my transition looks like, and as I sit here things I had never thought about are coming to my mind. Things like the process of changing my name or getting breast augmentation and wondering what size to get.

Photo: Joe Yates

The most important part of transition for me is my breast augmentation. I would be lying if I didn’t say part of it is sexual, but most of it is because of my history as I was forced to have a breast reduction when I was in middle school. It’s fixing a mistake that was made. I call it a mistake for the lack of a better word because we just did not know or understand who I was back in 1985, nor did we know how it would affect me years later.

In 2018, I discovered that I had spent the last two years of my life trying to hold on to two different worlds. In doing that I fooled myself into thinking I was moving forward, when in reality I was not moving anywhere. By the end of the year, all the forward momentum I started off with had grinded to a full stop.

As I move forward, I plan to share my journey with you. The ups and downs as I do more than transform my physical appearance. I am also transforming my life. It is time for me to live and I plan on doing just that.

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Erica Forman
Erica Forman

Love you, will be with you along the way!



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